This is hard for me to write because my emotions are all over the place and hubby is still not home… as I have to admit, I am really just hanging on by a thin thread.
Its been hard enough being an emotional, nauseous, throwing up, dizzy, tired mess. But now this.
I am horrible at details and retaining medical information so I am going to do my best here… you may see lots of external links, that might be more for my benefit then yours!
I went to my first OB check up today and we wanted to find out my exact due date. Since I was kinda sketchy on exact days of things my Dr. decided to do an ultrasound.
There were these long, long pauses and it seemed she wasn't seeing what she wanted to see. So she decided to do a (sorry if this is gross) vaginal ultrasound.
The baby was moving all over and perfect with a wonderful heart beat and two arms and legs and big ole' head. I kept looking at him. He was beautiful! (sex yet to be determined)
She kept looking at something else.
She says, "I am going to recommend you see a specialist. I'm not comfortable with your cervical length."
Then she said, "This could be a high risk pregnancy. The specialist can explain everything better and give you all your options."
Apparently I have a shortened cervix. Normally it should measure between 3cm and 5cm.
Mine is 1.2cm.
I am just going to copy and paste some info here. I found it at babycentre.co.uk.
A vaginal scan is the best way to measure your cervix because it can be seen much more clearly this way. The cervix looks like a tube on the scan, between 3cm and 5cm long, with one end at the top of the vagina (the external os), and the other end inside the uterus (the internal os). It is the internal os that can begin to open first, and this will look like a V shape on the scan. As the os opens further it becomes U shaped. This is called funnelling. If the closed part of the cervix measures less than 2.5cm, a stitch will be put in to stop the cervix opening further.
The risk is that if you have a shortened cervix, you can go into premature labor or lose the pregnancy.
They have me on progesterone which helps to relax the muscles so that I can hopefully avoid contractions. I might need to be on full bed rest.
I have to say, this has been to most diverse pregnancy I have ever had… and getting this info. certainly gives me some insight as to why.
Chad is still out of town. I am still feeling sick (hopefully that will pass soon!!!) and now I am just so overwhelmed and upset, I just sit here crying.
I know I need to calm down and stop sobbing and realize that God has me here for a reason, and that I need to trust in Him. Like, truly trust in Him.
Thank you so much for your prayers and well wishes… they are much appreciated! You know how strongly I believe in the power of prayer!