Did you know that a few weeks ago I completed a 68 hour fast?
It was life changing. I dont say that lightly.
I am totally addicted to food, to eating, to thinking about eating, to loving to eat anything and everything around me.
I love to mindlessly eat… lounging in front of the TV or computer.
I know that I have made food an idol. Its gotten pretty out of hand. And its also gotten to be a pretty vicious cycle. I eat, and eat, and then I feel frustrated and guilty and defeated.
So I tried this fast with one stipulation. I couldn’t make it about food.
I know that sounds weird, but I wanted to get my head right with God. I knew that body stuff would come later.
When I started it I didn’t know how long it would last, I didn’t know what I was cutting out, I didn’t know what I was doing it all.
But I knew that I wanted to accomplish one thing…every time that I had a craving or was mentally motivated to eat, I wanted to fill myself with the Word.
And I did.
There were only a few times I was actually hungry.. for the most part it was all a mental game.
I ate nothing but water and coffee. (which is really not smart, do NOT go on a coffee fast… coffee is a natural intestinal stimulant… and I think I will leave it at that!)
I pretty much carried my Bible everywhere. Mostly, it was laid out before me… scribbled on and crinkled. (I read it in the sauna once. I don’t recommend that either.)
I wanted to see it through though… I wanted to get a glimpse of God, of His will in my life, of who I was supposed to be, of what I was supposed to be doing.. where I was supposed to be investing my time.
That fast was the catalyst in me making many changes, one of them blogging. I was putting my blog (blogging as a whole) first… before Bible time, play time, quality time with family.
It sounds so stupid to say that… its just a blog right? Its just words and pictures and updates.
But I felt like it was so much more! I felt like I had an obligation to my online friends and that if I didnt keep up I was a quitter and a failure!
What I am finding is that everyone is a little (if not a lot) overwhelmed by blogging. My friends and readers welcomed the break from reading ‘i am mommy’ multiple times a week and feeling obligated to comment.
Well, when my sixty-eight hours was up and I started eating again (what would you eat first after waiting three days??) I didn’t feel that different.
I didn’t feel any more spiritually enlightened.
Not for a few days anyway.
But since I completed that fast, every single life situation has been viewed differently. Instead of me reacting as I normally would, I now have a whisper of God’s Word on my heart, and I am able to recall it and meditate on it.
For a month now whenever I am discussing something with friends or family I have been saying, “Oh yeah! When I was fasting I read that, or I learned that, or I discovered that….”
(hope thats not too annoying yet guys.)
Another amazing side effect was how it impacted my prayers for others. I would come across a verse and feel compelled to send it to them… or mediate on certain Scripture and feel like I was supposed to pray for someone specifically in that moment.
Even though I fasted for me, I was totally able to fully realize how much I needed to re-focus prayer time and be praying a little less for myself.
I started a fast again today… just for one day… because right now I want to lean more heavily on Him.
I am learning that for me, fasting not only has immediate rewards, but continuous and long term rewards as well.
And I just love that I can feel closer to the Almighty. His security and comfort is unequaled on this earth.
Oh yeah… and its helping me gain a healthier perspective on eating too.
And want to know what the first thing I ate was??
Was it sweet?
Spaghetti. And a cupcake. It was awesome.