(this is a long-winded post for me… I hope you dont mind!)
If anyone still reads this little mommy blog with bad spelling and questionable photography and silly stories, then you might have been wondering where the heck have I been.
You might have been wondering where your kids other white sock went or if the housing market is ever gonna turn around or if the Minnesota Vikings have a shot this year.
I have no idea if the housing market will ever turn around or where that other sock went (but check in their long johns, I always find socks in there) or if Favre can lead the Vikes to a victory season.
But just in case you were thinking… that jabber mouth Amanda has been strangely silent lately… whats her deal?
Then I can help you.
I have been gloriously happy.
I have been dejected and down.
I have been excited and enthusiastic.
I have been shuddering at the idea of the next wave of pain.
I have been tearfully thankful.
I have been a sobbing mess.
I have been eating lots of bread and and generic lemon lime soda.
I have been throwing up every single food that ends in…well, any letter in the alphabet.
I have been planning out my future… so grateful for that joyful, hopeful mental journey.
I have been dreading the next moment… especially when it involves migraines and vomiting.
I have been sitting by myself in a quiet room just contemplating how blessed this little family is.
Have you figured it out yet?
It is my greatest pleasure to share with you that we are pregnant.
Ever since we started a family, and I got right with God, I knew that the greatest role I would ever have the privilege to fulfill is that of mommy.
I am constantly surprised at how lucky I am to be at home with my kids and be able to watch every milestone and delight in every smile.
The timing is, of course, perfect. (thank you God!)
However, it has been a very difficult pregnancy so far.
I am very, very sick all day long. I already suffered from motion sickness, but this first trimester has rocketed that to a whole new level.
I cant read. I cant look at a computer. (meaning I cant read blogs or emails or anything very much… please forgive me!) I cant even look through my camera lens without potentially parting with my most recent meal.
I feel lethargic all throughout the day and have been crawling into bed around 6:30 every evening.
I have been teaching the kids how to play on Starfall and PBS Kids so they are learning and playing while mommy just 'lays down quick'.
I never knew I could be so filled with joy and hope and gratitude yet so discouraged and down and miserable at the same time.
I know this will end… its just a stage and it will pass and honestly, I am SO thankful that I can say I have morning sickness. As someone who has lost pregnancies before, this is a constant reminder at how efficiently my body is working to sustain this amazingly precious and coveted life growing within me.
I am truly so happy… I cant even begin to share with you the joy!
But please forgive this stage, where I have cancelled playdates and cookie orders and big blogging/crafting conventions that huge bloggers are traveling to MN for.
Please forgive me that I have not read any blogs or left comments or checked in one you. I seriously lay in bed thinking… how is Libby and Londa? I wonder how Renee and Taylor and Karen and Joy and so many more are doing.
I cant wait until my eyes can read clearly and my stomach can sustain a good blogging 'catch up' session.
I cant wait until I can eat a meal with my kids and not have to bolt into the next room.
I cant wait to meet this newest addition… and am trying to savor every moment I have with him right now. (We kinda think its a boy… but we have no idea!)
And yes, I totally want to find out the sex. My hubby could wait. I am trying to convince him to see it my way.