Have you noticed how infrequently I have been blogging lately?

Its because I'm in a funk.  A crabby, quick to get angry, totally misinterpreting everything everyone is saying, reading into things, and being completely overly sensitive funk.

Blogging has been hard.  Mostly because when I blog, I like to talk about positive things and talk kindly about people and generally avoid strife, gossip, anger, and turmoil.

It is exactly those things that have been ruling my feelings as of late.

So, please forgive me.  I might be whining a bit.  I might say something that, upon reflection, I could have kept to myself. 

I might want to be able to portray myself as being a lot more together and with it then I really am.

I do not have it all together.  I am not with it.  I am barely keeping my head a float.

The most difficult thing about being in a funk is my relationship with Jesus.

I can open my Bible and feel the grace and mercy of God and instantly be at peace.  I can read the words of Our Savior…

"… and you are complete in Him…" (Colossians 2:10)

or

"But the Lord stood with me and strengthened me…" (2 Timothy 4:17)

and just feel it.

But when I am in a funk, my Bible sits. 

On the table.  On my dresser.  Near the computer. 

Unopened. 

Why is that?

Instead of intentional parenting, I just snap at my kids and husband and ignore emails in my in box and let the laundry pile up and twitter something I probably shouldn't that I cant ever take back. 

Or I see other people being happy and instead of joining in or being happy for them, I am resentful and annoyed and wish they would take their happiness somewhere else.

I am Eeyore.

Have you ever heard Eeyore's song?

"Well, hello today its so nice of you to notice me.  Looks like rain wait and see.  Likely rain all over me.  Guess that's just the way that it has to be here in my gloomy place."

I am sick of myself.

So.  Here is my plan.  I am going to blog about this, and then let it go.  I refuse to be crabby and gloomy and difficult for one more second.

I am going to read my Bible and take a bubble bath and fold some laundry and give my family the biggest and longest hugs they will allow and then go send someone a nice card and I am going to choose joy.

I'll let ya know how it works out.

In the mean time… what do you do to snap yourself out of a funk?

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Reader Comments

  1. I think it is the time of year or something. I just left another blog immediately before coming here where the woman was in a funk too. And yes, I think we have to make a conscious decision to get out of it. Good luck!!

  2. Sounds like you have many wonderful friends that are praying for you and thinking of you – as am I. I can totally relate. This is my hardest time of year – mid-Jan to early March always sucks for me – not sure why. Just tired of winter- coming off the high of the holidays – new Year’s resolutions already blown! lots of reasons so I try to prepare myself ahead of time with ideas and friends, and outings and such. You need a day in the pool!!!! 🙂
    Hope you got a chance to read your Bible and take your Bubble Bath (maybe while eating a Banana or two!). 🙂
    God Bless

  3. I know what you are talking about. I liked the comparison of Eeylore/Tigger. When I’m feeling this way, my husband is very good about noticing and doing what he can to help me out. It is just something about him that helps me, he doesn’t want me to stay there (And I don’t want to) and he’s great about that. Praise music helps me or thinking of silly things of the past. Also writing it all out helps me and then sometimes I can get over it.

  4. Oh Amanda, I’m sending you a great big huge hug, because I feel like I’ve found a new friend in you, even though you are miles and miles away in Minnesota.
    And I want to thank you for being honest and sharing with us what you are going through. None of us are perfect, and we can spend so much wasted time comparing ourselves to others who we think are perfect and have it all together. I know I have struggled with this, a lot. And it makes me feel so incompetent, and low, and I can forget to turn to Jesus in those times. But it’s at the times when we are feeling low, when we are feeling far away from Jesus, that we need our friends and loved ones to lift us up and point us back to Him.
    And like many of the others, I too, have been in a funk. I think part of it really is this time of year. So, yes, take that bubble bath. And turn to the passages that bring you comfort. My favorite one lately is Matthew 11:28. And after I’ve pondered that for awhile, then I ponder Lamentations 3:22-23.
    And finally, I don’t know if you ever listen to Josh Groban, but he has a song that lifts me up. It’s called “You are Loved” and I like to think that God is singing that to me.
    Anyway, here’s another hug.
    Mandi

  5. Thank you for your post. I know that seems odd to say, to say thank you for a post that seems so down. When I read your post I wanted to copy and paste it into my own blog and say, “THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN FEELING TOO”
    I have been scrapbooking hoping that will lift my spirits out of my funk…hasn’t worked yet. Not even my little two year old smiles and giggles. Which isn’t good. So I understand, and no you are not whining.
    I subscribe to Real Simple and I received this daily thought today:
    “Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn’t know you left open.”
    ― John Barrymore
    So hopefully you have left a door open that you had not realized and your smile returns. When it does come back – please post what did it. I could use the inspiration too!
    Thanks – Megan
    P.S. I love your term Mommarozi – I’m going to steal it. I’ve been calling myself on my blog Paparazzi Mommy but I so like Mommarozi so much better! Very original!

  6. Thank you for sharing your feelings! I am actually feeling the exact same way right now, and I’ve had a hard time putting it into words. The worst part is that I’m absolutely aware of how I’m snapping at the kid/hubby and generally acting gloomy, but can’t seem to snap out of it or stop myself. I hope you find some peace and happiness soon (and if you do, please share your trick!!)

  7. Hi Amanda,
    I’m hoping you’re feeling better! I’m there with you right now… Maybe it’s the season? This winter weather and lack of movement (on my part anyways) can contribute to that dreadish, gloomy kind of feeling.
    Soo, things that help me get out my funk:
    * MAKE myself go out for a walk. Helps if I have a partner (neighbour). I usually feel better … CAN’T make myself do what you did with Gillian’s shred though. Too much of a committment right now.
    * Plan something to look forward to (with my DH, with my girlfriends)…
    * Put on my jammies and curl up in bed with a good book, or just surf the internet for fun blogs (like this one)
    * Watch stand-up comedy or blooper shows
    * Bubble bath (good idea you had – hope it helped) and hot tea.
    * Trust that it will pass… allow myself to feel it, and then let go. Choose joy, as you said. Not always easy though, which leads me to my last one:
    * My favorite chocolate helps sometimes too.
    😉
    Hugs to you!
    xo,
    Marian

  8. Amanda…one more…have you ever heard Dennis Prager on the radio? He devoted one hour a week to happiness…”The Happiness Hour.” I get the podcast and if I am feeling down, they perk me right up. 🙂

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