My struggle today lies in my trust in God. This is not something I admit casually, for it is with great trepidation I share these feelings.
But I have dealt with an issue for almost a year now, and am still ‘waiting’ on God.
Abraham and Sarah waited 25 years for an answer to their prayer. Twenty Five Years. I know I may wait forever and never know how the Lord handled it. And right now, I am stuck in "But thats not fair!"
I know the Lord is responsible for my reputation. I know the Lord will punish those who choose sin and evil over good.
But what hurts most right now is when fellow Christians act in a way that is un-Christian.
Hum. Can’t say to much more about that.
On a lighter note, it is a BEAUTIFUL day here in Minnesota. The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, the kids are tired from playing outside for the afternoon, and I am able to still see Gods amazing grace and beauty in the midst of my confusion and unease.
We have a big weekend planned. Cousin’s Gift #1 (the cutie patootie I babysit on the weekend) will be with us from Friday until Sunday. My parents are coming up Saturday and we are meeting at my moms cousin’s house for a light lunch and some general play time until we can go and check in to the hotel. My folks got a room at a hotel with a big water park! And they were even lucky enough to be able to bring my niece, whom I see really rarely, so it will be a full house of happy, soaking wet kids!!! (and hopefully very tired and sleepy kids once 8:00 rolls around! Mommy needs a LONG nights sleep!)
Then Sunday we have church and then maybe over to MIL’s. The invitation was extended awhile ago so I am not sure if it is still valid. LOL
I am exhausted, but starting to feel better. I throw up a lot more now, but the nausea has decreased some and I am able to find joy in my day. Thank you Jesus.
I still get pretty sick when I try to edit pictures, so I haven’t been able to share many as of yet, but there are some cute ones waiting for their public debut. You won’t be disappointed.