So I have been seriously avoiding my blog… and everyone else’s blog…and pretty much my computer in general.
I have never felt so nauseous, light headed, hungry, full, dizzy, depressed, moody, and like I am compelled to sob uncontrollably for hours… ALL AT ONCE.
I am miserable. I am miserable to be around. Say a prayer for my husband and children. They are earning big points for their continued love and support.
So, I am avoiding all contact with others because I am horrified at how I am reacting to things. About how emotional I am. I am avoiding leaving comments in others journals because I feel that I would not be giving them the credit they are due.
For example, you post a picture about your sick bird, and instead of me commenting with the appropriate amount concern and compassion… I would say something like, "Tweety doesn’t know sick. You send Tweety to my house and I will show him sick." That is just not right.
So why the explanation? At 9:46 this evening, I felt a moment of peace. My stomach wasn’t turning and my head wasn’t spinning and my eyes weren’t leaking and I was able to look at my computer screen without seeing double.
Please know, if I don’t visit you, its because I love you. Seriously. I am trying to spare you the wrath of uncontrollable pregnant lady.
Someday, when this trial has passed and I can look back and laugh… you’ll thank me.
One bit of good news… I went to see Doctor today. She was nice.
I GOT TO SEE BABY! I had an ultrasound and got to take home a picture of baby!!! I cried of course. But for once, it was happy tears.
Blessings to you and yours!