This is hard for me to write because my emotions are all over the place and hubby is still not home… as I have to admit, I am really just hanging on by a thin thread.  

Its been hard enough being an emotional, nauseous, throwing up, dizzy, tired mess.  But now this.

I am horrible at details and retaining medical information so I am going to do my best here… you may see lots of external links, that might be more for my benefit then yours!

I went to my first OB check up today and we wanted to find out my exact due date.  Since I was kinda sketchy on exact days of things my Dr. decided to do an ultrasound.

There were these long, long pauses and it seemed she wasn't seeing what she wanted to see. So she decided to do a (sorry if this is gross) vaginal ultrasound.

The baby was moving all over and perfect with a wonderful heart beat and two arms and legs and big ole' head.  I kept looking at him. He was beautiful!  (sex yet to be determined)

She kept looking at something else.

She says, "I am going to recommend you see a specialist. I'm not comfortable with your cervical length."

Then she said, "This could be a high risk pregnancy.  The specialist can explain everything better and give you all your options."

Apparently I have a shortened cervix.  Normally it should measure between 3cm and 5cm.

Mine is 1.2cm.

I have to go see a perinatologist.  They might have to put a stitch in, or a cervical cerclage.  A stitch in itself is quite controversial and not always successful.

I am just going to copy and paste some info here.  I found it at

A vaginal scan is the best way to measure your cervix because it can be seen much more clearly this way. The cervix looks like a tube on the scan, between 3cm and 5cm long, with one end at the top of the vagina (the external os), and the other end inside the uterus (the internal os). It is the internal os that can begin to open first, and this will look like a V shape on the scan. As the os opens further it becomes U shaped. This is called funnelling. If the closed part of the cervix measures less than 2.5cm, a stitch will be put in to stop the cervix opening further. 

The risk is that if you have a shortened cervix, you can go into premature labor or lose the pregnancy.

They have me on progesterone which helps to relax the muscles so that I can hopefully avoid contractions.  I might need to be on full bed rest. 

I have to say, this has been to most diverse pregnancy I have ever had… and getting this info. certainly gives me some insight as to why.

Chad is still out of town.  I am still feeling sick (hopefully that will pass soon!!!) and now I am just so overwhelmed and upset, I just sit here crying. 

I know I need to calm down and stop sobbing and realize that God has me here for a reason, and that I need to trust in Him.  Like, truly trust in Him.  

Thank you so much for your prayers and well wishes… they are much appreciated!  You know how strongly I believe in the power of prayer!

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Reader Comments

  1. I will pray for you Amanda. Just remember, always, that God IS in control and mindful of you and your baby and that will bring you comfort an peace.

  2. I am so sorry about the news you received. Not sure if this will help…I had the same thing with my 2nd pregnancy, along with horrible morning sickness (so bad, my doctor had a PICC line placed in my arm to give me 2 liters of fluid and Zofran every day to keep me hydrated and try to keep the morning sickness at bay), preeclampsia/border-line eclampsia (I had a seizure on my transport to a bigger hospital) and HELLP Syndrome. Had I not had the preeclampsia/eclampsia and HELLP Syndrome, I would have made it to my due date with the stitched cervix. My daughter was 2 months early…today, she is a very happy, smart, sassy, very healthy 21 month old. Yyou would NEVER, in a million years, guess she was 2 months early and 4 pounds. I can also relate to being without the husband during pregnancy as well. My husband left me and my son for 10 weeks to go through POST (police academy) 2 hours away. I was 5 months pregnant at the time. He graduated on Dec. 11. I was admitted in the hospital on Dec 12, transferred 1.5 hours away the morning of Dec. 17 and had my daughter at 7:58pm that night. I truly believe Heavenly Father made sure my husband was home before I got really super sick and had to be transferred for delivery at a bigger hospital with a level 2 NICU. Not saying that’s going to happen to you…but to give you some perspective on Him listening to our prayers and knowing our needs.
    I know it is VERY scary to say the least. I think you are doing the right thing by putting it in Heavenly Father’s hands. Remember, He doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle. You and your baby are in my prayers.

  3. I had to have a cerclage during my pregnancy a year ago. I found out mine was too short at week 18 and I was having twins. I was scared but had it done and everything was fine. I delivered at 33 weeks- for twins thats not bad. You will do great.

  4. After you lay this at His feet, the hard part will be to not keep picking it back up again. That’s where faith and trust come in.
    You can do this, no matter what happens, because He is with you. Let Him carry you through.
    I am definitely praying for you. I’ve already had a couple concerns with my current pregnancy, I know how hard it can be to push away the fears and the anxieties, but “there is a place of quiet rest, near to the heart of God”…

  5. I recently found your other blog and I love it. I’ll keep you in my prayers for a healthy pregnancy and an easy delivery.
    God bless you and your baby!

  6. Praying for you Amanda. I was just thinking what a good thing it has been that you have been sick, oddly enough, because it has kept you off of your feet and not going as much as usual. It sounds like that is a bonus in this situation. See, God’s got the details. 🙂

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