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Did you know that a few weeks ago I completed a 68 hour fast?

It was life changing.  I dont say that lightly.

I am totally addicted to food, to eating, to thinking about eating, to loving to eat anything and everything around me.

I love to mindlessly eat… lounging in front of the TV or computer.

I know that I have made food an idol.  Its gotten pretty out of hand.  And its also gotten to be a pretty vicious cycle.  I eat, and eat, and then I feel frustrated and guilty and defeated.

So I tried this fast with one stipulation.  I couldn’t make it about food.

I know that sounds weird, but I wanted to get my head right with God. I knew that body stuff would come later.

When I started it I didn’t know how long it would last, I didn’t know what I was cutting out, I didn’t know what I was doing it all.

But I knew that I wanted to accomplish one thing…every time that I had a craving or was mentally motivated to eat, I wanted to fill myself with the Word.

And I did.

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There were only a few times I was actually hungry.. for the most part it was all a mental game.

I ate nothing but water and coffee. (which is really not smart, do NOT go on a coffee fast… coffee is a natural intestinal stimulant… and I think I will leave it at that!)

I pretty much carried my Bible everywhere.  Mostly, it was laid out before me… scribbled on and crinkled. (I read it in the sauna once.  I don’t recommend that either.)

I wanted to see it through though… I wanted to get a glimpse of God, of His will in my life, of who I was supposed to be, of what I was supposed to be doing.. where I was supposed to be investing my time.

That fast was the catalyst in me making many changes, one of them blogging.  I was putting my blog (blogging as a whole) first… before Bible time, play time, quality time with family.

It sounds so stupid to say that… its just a blog right?  Its just words and pictures and updates.

But I felt like it was so much more!  I felt like I had an obligation to my online friends and that if I didnt  keep up I was a quitter and a failure!

What I am finding is that everyone is a little (if not a lot) overwhelmed by blogging.  My friends and readers welcomed the break from reading ‘i am mommy’ multiple times a week and feeling obligated to comment.

Well, when my sixty-eight hours was up and I started eating again (what would you eat first after waiting three days??) I didn’t feel that different.

I didn’t feel any more spiritually enlightened.

Not for a few days anyway.

But since I completed that fast, every single life situation has been viewed differently.  Instead of me reacting as I normally would, I now have a whisper of God’s Word on my heart, and I am able to recall it and meditate on it.

For a month now whenever I am discussing something with friends or family I have been saying, “Oh yeah!  When I was fasting I read that, or I learned that, or I discovered that….”

(hope thats not too annoying yet guys.)

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Another amazing side effect was how it impacted my prayers for others.  I would come across a verse and feel compelled to send it to them… or mediate on certain Scripture and feel like I was supposed to pray for someone specifically in that moment.

Even though I fasted for me, I was totally able to fully realize how much I needed to re-focus prayer time and be praying a little less for myself.

I started a fast again today… just for one day… because right now I want to lean more heavily on Him.

I am learning that for me, fasting not only has immediate rewards, but continuous and long term rewards as well.

And I just love that I can feel closer to the Almighty.  His security and comfort is unequaled on this earth.

Oh yeah… and its helping me gain a healthier perspective on eating too.

And want to know what the first thing I ate was??

Was it sweet?

Maybe savory?

Yes.

Spaghetti.  And a cupcake.  It was awesome.

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Meet Amanda Rettke

Amanda Rettke is the creator of I Am Baker, and the bestselling author of Surprise Inside Cakes: Amazing Cakes for Every Occasion – With a Little Something Extra Inside.Over the course of her 15+ year blogging adventure, she has been featured in and collaborated with the Food Network, New York Times, LA Times, Country Living Magazine, People Magazine, Epicurious, Brides, Romantic Homes, life:beautiful, Publishers Weekly, The Daily Mail, Star Tribune, The Globe and Mail, DailyCandy, YumSugar, The Knot, The Kitchn, and Parade, to name a few.

Reader Comments

  1. Holy cow! I am not sure if I could do that…actually, I think I could, I just don’t want to. I love eating too much.

  2. I have noticed the change in you through your blog – even though you are thousands of miles away.
    May God continue to bless you, your family and your bloggy family too 🙂
    cupcakes – I get! spaghetti? – not so sure!!

  3. Isn’t the Lord amazing? He can take something you started to work on you, and work on you by opening your eyes to thinking more of, and praying more for, others…
    God is so good, He’s so good indeed!

  4. Isn’t the Lord amazing? He can take something you started to work on you, and work on you by opening your eyes to thinking more of, and praying more for, others…
    God is so good, He’s so good indeed!

  5. wow wow wow! thank you. simply beautiful. what you’ve shared has really made me think about the need i have also to be back in the Word. I LONG to have HIS words whispering in my ears. Thank you again dear sister.

  6. well done you for completing the fast – it is amazing how focussed we can be when we are not distracted by food.

  7. Way to go Amanda…I have yet to do a fast from food, but sometimes fasts can be from other things too. I would have a hard time preparing meals for my family and not being able to eat myself. Were you away while you did the fast?
    I too am finding it ultra hard to blog this summer. Kids home and around all the time make me feel like I shouldn’t be sitting at the computer. Which I shouldn’t. I should be enjoying them while I can!

  8. Way to go Amanda…I have yet to do a fast from food, but sometimes fasts can be from other things too. I would have a hard time preparing meals for my family and not being able to eat myself. Were you away while you did the fast?
    I too am finding it ultra hard to blog this summer. Kids home and around all the time make me feel like I shouldn’t be sitting at the computer. Which I shouldn’t. I should be enjoying them while I can!

  9. Wow! Thanks for sharing- what a great experience. I love how God uses so many different ways to get our attention!
    Jessica

  10. anything that makes you stronger and helps build your faith….is a good thing.
    I am so grateful for everything I have, and that I am able to do…..I know each breath I take is a gift.
    thanks for sharing a bit of your life with us

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